No matter what you do, it can seem like things won’t go your way. Addiction has a way of eating up any progress you make. One step forward, two steps backward might be cliched, but it’s true for so many addicts. You may feel you don’t get those same big breaks as other people, no matter what you do.
But even when you are lucky, it feels like it doesn’t last. And the reason is that to be lucky you have to be able to take advantage of opportunities. Drug addiction makes that difficult to do.
Me and My Luck
My team and I were working on a big project for a potential buyer. If we got the contract, it meant a big bonus for everyone. At the last minute, one of the other finalists dropped out. We got the contract, and I got my bonus.
The extra money was supposed to be for a vacation. Or at least that’s what I tried to tell myself. My wife and I needed the break, and this was a chance for us to put things right in our marriage. But that’s not how it worked out. I spent all of it on amphetamines, not even telling my wife about the extra money. Instead of celebrating a big personal breakthrough, I spent a week as high as I’ve ever been.
Being Prepared for Luck
It’s hard for an addict to deal with luck. Maybe you feel you don’t deserve it. Perhaps you wonder why, despite something good happening to you, all you want to do is get high. As you begin your recovery, it’s going to be hard to take advantage of those big breaks and feel like you’re finally turning the corner. Here’s some advice:
- Share your success
I didn’t tell my wife about my bonus. Involve the people you care about, and you’ll feel like you’re heading in the right direction
- Have a plan
You can’t be lucky if you don’t know what to do with it. These plans won’t always work out, that’s just part of addiction. But you give yourself a much better chance if you’re prepared.
- Forgive yourself
You’ll make mistakes and blow opportunities. That’s how life is, let alone living with addiction. If you can’t forgive yourself after a mistake, you’ll only make a recovery that much harder.